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Don't ever kid yourself about loving someone. It is just that most people are not lucky enough to ever have it. You never had it before and now you have it. What you have with Maria, whether it lasts just through today and a part of tomorrow, or whether it lasts for a long life is the most important thing that can happen to a human being. There will always be people who say it does not exist because you have it. But I tell you it is true and that you have it and that you are lucky even if you die tomorrow.

-Ernest Hemingway, For Whom the Bell Tolls



Today, marks a new day. I cannot articulate all of the words, nor expound upon the vast emotions I've felt. The situation that I find myself in is that of prevailing levels of love and passion. I have never felt this way before, and therefore, I do not ever wish to lose that. Such excitement has befallen me and I have continually remind myself that the dream has finally become a reality, for I am no longer in a facsimile subconscious state. 

She said yes.

How incredible this feeling is! Yet, I have found it difficult to grasp the gravity of the awe this will undoubtedly bring. How amazing it is to truly find love. There is such hope in that tiny phrase. At times, it is callously thrown to the wolves, as though it was a gesture, at par with the common "hello." But, it isn't. It means so much more, very much more than an informal address. It isn't static or stationary; ordinary white noise of the emotionless masses. 

It was not only that she said yes, but added to a validation that needed to be confirmed. It meant more than verbal recognition of all things mutual. Love was there. She verbalized much more, than simply, "yes." 

In it, there was hope. Hope for life, love, and happiness. To be there, here and now, as well in the distant and present futures. It was as if to say in the most convincing poker face, "I am all in." 

Today, this post is dedicated to you, Kayla Marie. Thank you for making one exuberant and ecstatic man. I am excited for the journey we are about to embark on. 

I love you.

16 responses to “This is Real”

  1. Congratulations to both of you. Even though I have never met either one of you in person, you have been in my prayers as you have faithfully ministered and poured into young adults (Chris included). May God bless you both beyond measure.
    Mom Cave

  2. so excited for the two of you, nick. honored that i get to work with you during such an exciting and joyous time! CONGRATULATIONS!

  3. YEAHH!!! Congratulations! So excited for you both and am super happy I was there to celebrate with the two of you! 🙂

  4. Well ain’t that sweet. : ) Very excited for the two of you. You’re so obviously head over heels for one another.

  5. Nick I am so amazed at the man you have become…I am so excited about the next chapter of your life..I dont know Kayla yet, but, I am excited to welcome her into our family..You both in in my prayers…Love you and hope to see you soon… Phil.1:3…love Aunt Robin

  6. Thanks, ladies, for the encouragement.

    Isn’t it interesting that no guys, aside from my post, commented on this particular entry? All I can say is, “wow.”

  7. This is wonderful Nick. Very excited and happy for you both. You are going to be an amazing husband.

  8. Ahhhhhh I’m SO excited for this season you two are in and the seasons that are to come for you two! God has blessed you guys! He is so faithful!